However, as I engaged her what was communicated to my spirit was much more. Here was a young woman alone….really alone! There was no one in the E.R. waiting room, waiting on her. No one interested that she was killing herself with narcotics. Her EYES communicated a lack of purpose, hurt, confusion and a desperation that comes from KNOWING you are alone. As I sat with my mum in an attitude of prayer regarding her sickness; this young women was also on my heart. I watched as doctors and nurses came in and out of her room, all the while a policeman guarded her door. The atmosphere surrounding this girl was one of ridicule and judgment. As I sat and watched I was increasingly burdened for this young woman. I thought to myself, “I am fairly certain I know what people think of this lady, but what am I to think? Should I also cast judgment on her and chalk this up as another person with a bad habit?” How should I SEE her? I was reminded that the Bible tells us that if our eyes are bad then everything is dark. If the light inside an individual is dark, then that one is truly in the dark. (Matthew 6:23). The eyes of this woman were dark, she was not able to live with spiritual vision where she could see her life as one of beauty rather than the handicaps that manifested her addiction. Ironically, nor could those around her! This observation provoked my spirit.
I am constantly challenged with the idea that as a Christian just how easy it is to become complacent and comfortable, and truly lack a burden for the sinner. I might go to church, give my money, and maybe even get involved with my time. It seems easier to live a life that demonstrates the love of Christ in my actions. I have understood the concept of living a lifestyle of evangelism by doing good deeds. These are all good things, yet this young women provoked the meditation, "Do I purposefully and intentionally name the name of Christ in my actions?" Do people move away from my presence just thinking that I am a moral upstanding individual, or do they really know the Power behind the personality? Am I really more content to wait for the sinner to visit my church, or am I truly burdened to meet them where they live? It struck my heart, had this woman heard the name of Jesus? Had anyone been intentional with her and cared enough to introduce her to Jesus Christ, the power of God for salvation to anyone who would believe? I am reminded that love is in the EYE of the Beholder. Jesus Christ loves this individual (John 3:16). The Bible tells us that Jesus did not come to save the healthy, but those that are sick (Mark 2:17). As a Christian do I sometimes forget that once upon a time I too was sick? The Apostle Paul eloquently encourages the believer, 'How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news"'(Romans 10:14-15). Love is in the eye of the Beholder and because this is so as a Christian I have been commissioned to love those that are sick ...and like Christ my burden should be to THEREFORE GO! (Matthew 28.18).